Just had a convo with Giulia, first time in forever, and yet we still click. The friendship is still strong, I never knew that could happen... All my previous friendships have died after not seeing each other for about a month... well, apart from the one with Dan, he disappeared for a while too and we're clicking again... hmm... maybe it is possible, as long as the trust isn't gone and you show each other you haven't changed all that much, then you can disappear for years and the catch up will be just as good as your previous convos were.
Anyway, to answer the question now on everybodys mind. Yes, I still have feelings for her, that much was obvious because my heart is still pounding so strong I can feel it in my stomach. But I honestly never once had the urge to breakdown and beg her to take me back. I have missed my friend, and now that she's back I'm starting to see that the friendship was always stronger than the relationship ever could've been.
It was nice to see her again, and I'm not going to do anything stupid, I'm with Katie and I really like her, so I guess all it took was time and space to get over her and now we can finally be civil once more.
P.S. her sex life was mentioned, and not even a pang of jealousy hit me at all. I'm proud of myself :)
P.P.S. Sorry about this being so... well, not graphic, but revealing. I have boundary issues, and sorry if I betrayed your trust by telling anybody this Giulia... I did try not to say too much about you and focus it more on me, but needed a little explanation.
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